Sunday July 21st

Ok, just quickly....I was trying to put those ones up in ages.

From last years screen acting class.

As I never got the footage...I redid the whole thing and do think not that it is great... but better than the ones I produced last year.

Stupidly complicated, as I can not upload videos to the page directly. Not sure if they are playing at all. But it definitely was fun to do it over.

Me....: the PROFESSOR

Prof. Rohl...The Reader....Monologue...1st Try! Please click Pic to open

Prof. Rohl...The Reader...Monologue...2nd Try! Please clic Pic to open

Prof Rohl...The Reader...Monologue...3rd Try! Please klick Pic to open

And I actually found those. Saved them onto a stick, before my old labtop crashed. ...It's a little longer ago. Another monologue. No real Character ...just the 1st that came up when I went on the internet...called it "miserable monologue". Done two versions of it one really miserable...still in my mum's basement... the other one in colour... not exactly a lot more cheerful but slightly upbeat.

Turns out the files are to big. I can't get them to load. And currently do not have the soft ware to edit them. Well good to know I still have them somewhere.  Really will go and do some more. Really have to go and cheer me up!

Yeah right upbeatness....!

Something I do find rather difficult to achieve recently .

Finding myself continuously stuck between (emptying) the (rubbish)bin and (cleaning) the (toilet)bowl, feeling the BREXIT-braces tighten around my future choices and my stomach at the same time (might have just been a bug I picked up). 

Everybody around just feels so dulled and dummed (not sure this is actually a real word, but it sounds perfect) ...best case scenario...slightly depressed. Was hoping to find another class or workshop but it is so difficult to combine the dates with work...and considering the current (Brexit)Situation I really do not dare to be without (official) employment.  However minor it seems it might just be the little bit of legal leverage that will be put between: ME.. and THE 2ND CLASS CITIZEN.

Will probably sooner or later have to apply for settled status. Whatever that means!? I am just somehow not sure if I do feel "British" enough to give up all my European rights (mostly that of free movement). Because what am I if not the perfect example of European patchwork....a bit of everything, the best of all worlds!

Have tried to avoid thinking about it but recently I find it more and more difficult.

Feels a bit like I am heading towards this historically repetitive split-society-scenario that will make me sign myself over to a better (no deal in the worst case)  "british brexit prison cell".

Ironically I find it rather unsettling that this might only be the beginning of how it starts. Wasn't it the way it started so many times before anywhere really?

The beginning of the end ...of a lot more liberties everybody took for granted and somehow people do not really seem to care about no more. Or they simply are to tired to notice. To distracted to care, or the other way round. 

Well I am trying not to beat myself up about it.