January 1st (2019)

Still cought Big Ben on TV before trying to find some fireworks not so much around here though.....that was all there was.

Pretty much the same with my aims/goals, like I find it rather difficult to re-discover them ...every once in a while one sparks up from somewhere out of the distant darkness.... there where I must have left them a long time ago.

There where they were turned from want/wish-to-dos into have-to-dos...as there is most certainly a difference between dreams, aims and goals....achievments and just securing one's simple survival...as definitions have shifted. Seems to me that the later is already all of the above recently / in our times).

For now it is more like trying to stay healthy so I can go to work to earn and pay my rent.....Not exactly to overly ambitious, but still ... all I feel I have to do to afford me my few days of down time every once in a while.

And really if I look at all those pictures I had great times last year... I feel really lucky as one of the things I wanted was to rediscover London. Well I guess that worked out rather well!

January 26th

Winter Day: Full, real, straight and great!!!!

Still "survival" has never been/looked so tasty...and though capitalism makes one crawl on hands and knees for the "Mammon (Dad's word)"...after all...if one finally earned it, got kicked and pushed around for it , missed the target but showed willingness to keep creeping along with operational demands (ahem commands!?)...well there is a choice as to what to actually do with it! In my case not exactly the one I would wish for but it is a choice after all. As only a few centuries even decades ago one would have been considered rich with plates full of all this.

Not quite sure what the choice will come down to after BREXIT?

Something like British independent potatoes or home grown British carrots.... Should maybe stock up on a few nice bottles of French and Italian vino, before it will become unaffordable!