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Wednesday

June 11th

So sweet summer breeze is off for a while and I'll try to keep my hands where I can see them.

They were so numb again a while ago, I thought this time I really lost them and those fingers where the only thing I kept from all of it.

Together with those flickering and flashing lights in my sight and the rather common signs of hyperventilation I do after only 6 months feel perfectly normal and absolutly adjusted to the outside environment just one more time.

Welcome to the holy land.... yeah... and looks can be so decieving.... So how come that everytime I feel like shite(!!!!) I actually look rather not to bad...(well at least on pics)?

Tuesday

June 10th

Well,.....outside this morning wasn't actually a pretty sight. Something up there must have had a bit of a clean up last night....Never seen so many trees down before.

Hope this has nothing to do ( or somehow I do...) with my "10 fingers (really my straightest one is not enough)" for the DB (deutsche Bahn) executives. Because when I arrived at the station train transportation was suffering from major disruptions if not to say a complete stand still untill further notice.

Walked back home through (what was left of) the woods and do try to enjoy the fact that I have an unexpected day at home.

Trying to not mind the fact that just one more time I did not get much further but from "fettel Ätsch" (fatal edge) to "function fuckes". And that as soon as the trains will be back I'll have to have another go at "The Journey to Jerusalem"...thats what they call "Musical Chairs" in German.

Well for now it is PHP in a tele learning session.

Looks very much like the trees start fighting back!!!!!

Monday

June 9th

Seeing the moon weaving itself in and out of the pacing pale storm clouds last night might have just been the moment that eventually saved me through till august. (Nice change me sipping on a glass of vino and not a cup of coffe around that time of night.)

Really have to find more beautiful things to look at while I feel I can still keep my eyes open.

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